So what!

Few days never update my blog. I feel that if i not put something on today, this might become my history again. So far, this is 3rd blog i had open, previous 2 blog only last for few weeks, I really hope that this can together with me longer, even forever if i manage to overcome my laziness and fear.
Actually i got quite a lot of idea to put on my blog, but everything there is something stop me. Laziness, should be quite simply to understand. I'm a person which not patience and wish to make thing fast but it will not stand last. My friend around me should feel that, especially those work with me on something before. I can give lot of idea and effort at the beginning of anything, but when there is nothing to push me later, everything will slow down. It is very dangerous to work together with me and i know that. Because I'm lazy and easy go lucky people. I consider myself as never really have hard time before. so far I'm quite lucky that i didn't push hard to get something, even something i need to, but i'll tell myself, that is not that important, just let go instead of try harder. And that's why i still working hard and complain everything on my life. I know i choose to and i know i can make the change if i really want. But i keep let the thing go and let my life easy going.
Than how about fear. Language is something I hate, especially writing. I can speak well but when come to writing, i always lack of word to express the message i try to pass out. For mandarin, I need to spend hours to come out a paragraph, with my 1st weakness - lazy + no patience, this is quite impossible for me to write something long in mandarin. With English, word keep rapid and hard to get a work that form 3 student can't understand. I doubt my English still worst than a secondary pupils. This always stop me to post any blog online, I try not to show too much of my weakness in front of other. It make me terrible self-abasement. But so what! I always use this 2 word to let me feel release. No one is perfect in this world. I should brave to do what i want to do and not stay in the world i imaging. True friend will not laugh on your weakness and sincere friend will try to guide you better. Beside that, do more what you afraid on is best way to walk out from that frightened.
So what! the worst for a human can be is not dead, but stay with fear and worrying. And I always believe - Tomorrow will be better day. Nothing is impossible if you believe it can. :)