慢功出细货。Something in rush very hard to come out quality result. Today I need to rush for my work and i just can get a nice sentence with share with everyone.
你知道嗎，遇見一個人需要一秒鐘的時間；喜歡一個人需要一分鐘的時間，而忘記一個人，即要花上一輩子的時間……
Scar can missing when time goes on, but something will together with you for the rest of your life - unforgettable memory toward people, incident or something cause you regret for whole life.
Thursday, March 22, 2007
Wednesday, March 21, 2007
随笔。。
对于任何一种生活方式和人生态度，我觉得都可以承认和接受，因为即使你不承认，不接受，它也一样是存在的，更何况要圆滑快乐生活在这个世界上，已经是很苦 很累的一件事情，何必为了他人一个眼光，一句话，把自己的生活习性都强制改变呢。随性一点儿好。更没有理由和资格去评判他人的生活方式，人和人本来非常不同。
-From: http://vinafanfan.blog.sohu.com/
-From: http://vinafanfan.blog.sohu.com/
如果你是天空中的一片云。。
我是天空中的一片云
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偶尔投影在你的波心
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你不必惊异无须欢欣
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在这瞬间消逝了踪影
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你我相逢在黑夜的海上
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你有你的我有我的方向
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你记得也好最好你忘掉
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在这交会时互放的光芒
~.~.~.~.~.~.~.~.~.~.~.~ 徐志摩
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偶尔投影在你的波心
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你不必惊异无须欢欣
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在这瞬间消逝了踪影
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你我相逢在黑夜的海上
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你有你的我有我的方向
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你记得也好最好你忘掉
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在这交会时互放的光芒
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How will you think when strong wing blow on you and bring you to a new place during? No matter we believe on fate, sometime we just can't decide on the life we wanted to. That is so many reason might affect us and change of decision. How many people really find their destiny and move forward to that? I don't know, but I know I'm not in that group.
I feel unfair for lots of thing happen on me, I feel unsatisfied with with my current life. I believe I can be better and I can be treat better than what I have now. But I still can't find where should I direct to.
Sound like my article not related to the poem I write on top? Actually depend how you interpreted it. This poem more like 有缘无分的故事。But It also can interpreted as sometime fate just not in our hand, no matter you like it or not, 云总是要跟着风飘的。
To live better, feel happier and be enjoyable, try not to think whichever thing that you can't change even you want to. 还是那句，看开点吧。。。 朋友！
Actually I plan to write in mandarin for today's blog, but my 拼音 really too bad and i can't find lots of word i want to use. :(
Tuesday, March 20, 2007
Oracle update?
My new blog on some oracle knowledge to share. :) http://ek-oracle.blogspot.com/
I feel I'm absolutely 门外汉 in oracle after I had start my reading. I really don' t know how i survive in Oracle line for 5 years with my limited knowledge on it and I really feel shameful to working on something I don't know about. Hope that I can keep on enhance my oracle knowledge and share it through my new blog! Please help to kick me when you found i had not update there, because that mean I had stop my learning process.
I feel I'm absolutely 门外汉 in oracle after I had start my reading. I really don' t know how i survive in Oracle line for 5 years with my limited knowledge on it and I really feel shameful to working on something I don't know about. Hope that I can keep on enhance my oracle knowledge and share it through my new blog! Please help to kick me when you found i had not update there, because that mean I had stop my learning process.
Monday, March 19, 2007
Investment Vs Gambling
I feel lucky that I had just lost all my credit in online poker (type of gambling). Why I say so? During Chinese New Year, I go gambling cruise with my family. I heard this statement, If you lost money when you start gambling, you are really lucky because that will be one stop activities for you and you will not lost your life later. People keep on gambling because they win during their first gambling and they feel that it is the way to earn fast and easy money. Now I believe it is true, because my first game I play, I win some money and feel excited of that, my heart is warm and it really take over my brain function to think at the moment that's why when I get better hand on second game, i just go for it and lost all my credit. Hahaha. If I keep on win for few more hands, I really can't imaging what will happen, am I put in more fund when i finish my credit because I'll think I can get it back easily or I still still stop? But now, I had uninstall the tool and promise to myself that no more and enough. So, don't you think I'm so lucky?
Actually this is consequence of my onsite support, because I don't know how to make use of my extra free time, I just search anything i can try online and I get to all this. Hope that I can really get something meaningful and knowledgeable activities to carry on later. At the moment, I'll start review my Oracle knowledge. I really obsolete in technical knowledge that i should know more.
Back to topic, actually I'm always think of how to get fast and easy income. I feel myself not realistic because i stay live in the world of my dream and imagination. I lack of patience to action my plan step by step and i hope to get thing done fast, even investment. I feel that with my saving, 10-20% return for me is nothing due to low fund I had. It direct me to spot for those high risk investment tool and at last I get burn. People who never fall will never know, sometime people notice it too late and they just can carry on their dream and spoil their whole life. But luckily i still got some people advise and adjust me at the right time. Something can't be rush, else you will get the pain of it and you can't enjoy the result. Once investment turning into aim to get fast money, it actually is type of gambling and not type of investment. People who know little big of financial should know, high return only come after high risk.
For those who really want to invest to get better return, I'll suggest share market instead of unit trust, why? People who manage your fund need to get salary no matter market raise or drop, it mean that when market raise, you earn less (earn - cost) and when market drop, you lost more (-lost - cost). But unit trust also got it's benefit, fund size is big so they can diversify the risk and re-invest to faster cover the lost. Anyway, every tool might suitable for difference people, but sure better than put into FD which is VERY secure but with 3.5 return, 0.5-1.5 higher than inflation. Do some home work and invest in some strong base counter, you might get good dividend and good selling price later.
No matter how you manage your life, just remember... 赌钱是不好的，你知道吗？
Actually this is consequence of my onsite support, because I don't know how to make use of my extra free time, I just search anything i can try online and I get to all this. Hope that I can really get something meaningful and knowledgeable activities to carry on later. At the moment, I'll start review my Oracle knowledge. I really obsolete in technical knowledge that i should know more.
Back to topic, actually I'm always think of how to get fast and easy income. I feel myself not realistic because i stay live in the world of my dream and imagination. I lack of patience to action my plan step by step and i hope to get thing done fast, even investment. I feel that with my saving, 10-20% return for me is nothing due to low fund I had. It direct me to spot for those high risk investment tool and at last I get burn. People who never fall will never know, sometime people notice it too late and they just can carry on their dream and spoil their whole life. But luckily i still got some people advise and adjust me at the right time. Something can't be rush, else you will get the pain of it and you can't enjoy the result. Once investment turning into aim to get fast money, it actually is type of gambling and not type of investment. People who know little big of financial should know, high return only come after high risk.
For those who really want to invest to get better return, I'll suggest share market instead of unit trust, why? People who manage your fund need to get salary no matter market raise or drop, it mean that when market raise, you earn less (earn - cost) and when market drop, you lost more (-lost - cost). But unit trust also got it's benefit, fund size is big so they can diversify the risk and re-invest to faster cover the lost. Anyway, every tool might suitable for difference people, but sure better than put into FD which is VERY secure but with 3.5 return, 0.5-1.5 higher than inflation. Do some home work and invest in some strong base counter, you might get good dividend and good selling price later.
No matter how you manage your life, just remember... 赌钱是不好的，你知道吗？
Thursday, March 15, 2007
Back to Sweden...
Because of a project need more resource and I still 'free' from any project, i being assign to Sweden to assist my colleague here. I can feel that some friend around me feel that i'm lucky since I always catch the chances to flight here and there and involve in so many difference project from difference country. But it is something i should feel pround of it? I feel I can't find my role since I belong to every project mean that i belong to none of the project. I'm adhoc and helper for other project need resource and followup. I really hate the situation when i can't get my own role. I feel like a ball that can easily being kicking here and there. And the worst is everything is never ending story once I get involve. Maybe is my problem that i don't know how to reject other and I don't know how to say NO to other.
I always believe that I'm capable to handle multiple tasks and I confident I can perform well. But recently, my stand on this point is sharking due to my failure on some tasks being assign. I know that i'm careless sometime and multi tasking cause me come out even more mistake that it shouldn't happen. I really tired and fareup with mistake I had did sometime. I really not well prepare to move to higher role in my career path. I really know that!!! But how can I get improve? I really no idea, or should say i can't really find a way that suite me to growth me up.
I always believe that I'm capable to handle multiple tasks and I confident I can perform well. But recently, my stand on this point is sharking due to my failure on some tasks being assign. I know that i'm careless sometime and multi tasking cause me come out even more mistake that it shouldn't happen. I really tired and fareup with mistake I had did sometime. I really not well prepare to move to higher role in my career path. I really know that!!! But how can I get improve? I really no idea, or should say i can't really find a way that suite me to growth me up.
Tuesday, February 20, 2007
缘+分..
I all the while use a wrong term, 缘分 I had write it as 缘份. Anyway, do you believe 缘分? When 2 people from difference world meet each other, we call it 缘. When they meet at right time and right environment, we add a 分 behind so that they can continue growth their relationship. But when they meet at the wrong timing or environment, we also add 分 behind, but with 2 more words in between to separate them, 有缘无分.
Sometime people experience few relationship until they get give other an impression, '花心'. But how can one know when they will meet the right one and cash it out? If no one can answer this question, why people can't change to the one they like the most when they meet one after they are in relationship? I heard a story on this, love is like picking stone from a one way street, once you picked a stone, that is represent you had choose your love, the rule is no U-turn, only one stone can be picked and you can't re-pick. Some people had pick the stone before walk on this road, it mean that you had choose one before you understand what is love. Some pick too early and they regret when they found a better one later. Some keep think they might meet someone better later and they had miss the one they had love the most until they simply take one when they reach the end of road. Some they choose to pick nothing because they know they had miss. And only small portion of people lucky to choose the one they love the most. Which group of people are you in?
Actually no matter which group you are, put in effort to build up the strong relationship is only way to keep a relationship. True love will not drop from sky, we need to work hard to get what we wanted it to be and enjoy the fruit later. 祝有情人终成眷属。
Sometime people experience few relationship until they get give other an impression, '花心'. But how can one know when they will meet the right one and cash it out? If no one can answer this question, why people can't change to the one they like the most when they meet one after they are in relationship? I heard a story on this, love is like picking stone from a one way street, once you picked a stone, that is represent you had choose your love, the rule is no U-turn, only one stone can be picked and you can't re-pick. Some people had pick the stone before walk on this road, it mean that you had choose one before you understand what is love. Some pick too early and they regret when they found a better one later. Some keep think they might meet someone better later and they had miss the one they had love the most until they simply take one when they reach the end of road. Some they choose to pick nothing because they know they had miss. And only small portion of people lucky to choose the one they love the most. Which group of people are you in?
Actually no matter which group you are, put in effort to build up the strong relationship is only way to keep a relationship. True love will not drop from sky, we need to work hard to get what we wanted it to be and enjoy the fruit later. 祝有情人终成眷属。
Sunday, February 11, 2007
被爱是幸福的？
People sometime complain that how suffer and how difficult to love another people, because everyone have difference thinking, difference background or even difference believe. The other way round, being love is blessedness. Because we will get pamper, being take care and no need to worry too much. If we can meet the right one that love each other, that is perfect match. But in reality, how many pair is perfect at the beginning period? Since so hard to get a perfect match at the beginning, should we choose the one love us or the one we love to developing further relationship?
I believe major group of people will choose the one they love to start a relationship, because they believe that they can create good relationship in future if they put in effort, beside that, they will not feel regret since they are choosing what they want. Than why people will say 被爱是幸福的, but they will prefer challenge a difficult one to start? I believe many people have the same answer as me, because the fruit of result will be sweet and unforgettable. I always believe this and I'm lucky that I had meet the right one. Thank you my love.
My friend recommended a very nice website for me, I wish to share with everyone (mandarin): http://gs.chinamp3.com
I hope to take this chance to wish those in relationship have a nice and memorable valentine's day. For those who still single, wish you meet your Mr./Miss. right soon.
你我约定 难过往的事不准提 也答应永远不让对方担心 要做快乐的自己 照顾自己 就算某天一个人孤寂 你我约定 一争吵很快要喊停 也说好没有秘密彼此很透明 我会好好的爱你 傻傻爱你 不去计较公平不公平
I believe major group of people will choose the one they love to start a relationship, because they believe that they can create good relationship in future if they put in effort, beside that, they will not feel regret since they are choosing what they want. Than why people will say 被爱是幸福的, but they will prefer challenge a difficult one to start? I believe many people have the same answer as me, because the fruit of result will be sweet and unforgettable. I always believe this and I'm lucky that I had meet the right one. Thank you my love.
My friend recommended a very nice website for me, I wish to share with everyone (mandarin): http://gs.chinamp3.com
I hope to take this chance to wish those in relationship have a nice and memorable valentine's day. For those who still single, wish you meet your Mr./Miss. right soon.
你我约定 难过往的事不准提 也答应永远不让对方担心 要做快乐的自己 照顾自己 就算某天一个人孤寂 你我约定 一争吵很快要喊停 也说好没有秘密彼此很透明 我会好好的爱你 傻傻爱你 不去计较公平不公平
Thursday, February 8, 2007
决定权
I can't remember how many time, but i know is countless times I had complain 'Why the right of decision is not on me?' when i being ask to do something or sometime I need to do something that i not willing did. Why I can't get the job and the tasks I want? Why I born in M'sia, an unfair country toward Chinese? and lot of why toward anything I don't like or I don't feel like to do. At the same time of asking this question, how many of us had though what the the right of decision give to you, what is your decision and is that your decision is fair to other as well? You don't like that tasks being assign, then what you want to do? A more simple question, if you complain on your current life situation, than what you want your life to be?
I'm the one who always complain to myself, my life is not happy, the tasks is something i not prefer, income is lower than expected and others. What when think what what i want to be and what decision I want to make to change any of this? Never have any result will come out. I want to start my own business, but what i need to consider and how can I make it? Than I can't think of it and at the same time, I don't like to think further about it. I not even like to think what I want, how other will make a decision that I accept happily? Making a decision is hard, heavy responsibility and need to bare the consequent. Everyone know how to blame other can't come out the fair and acceptable decision, but how many among the complainer can come out a better solution/decision? People who complain on their life is not on their hand is people who not dare and not capable to make their own decision. Smart people will learn how to make decision and change it later, normally people will keep it silent since they know they can't make the change and others will make lot of noise and self-appreciation to let themselves feel better. how about you?
三心二意无定性, 四处徘徊不专精, 仅管条条大路通长安, 却永远无法到达终点! -静思语
I'm the one who always complain to myself, my life is not happy, the tasks is something i not prefer, income is lower than expected and others. What when think what what i want to be and what decision I want to make to change any of this? Never have any result will come out. I want to start my own business, but what i need to consider and how can I make it? Than I can't think of it and at the same time, I don't like to think further about it. I not even like to think what I want, how other will make a decision that I accept happily? Making a decision is hard, heavy responsibility and need to bare the consequent. Everyone know how to blame other can't come out the fair and acceptable decision, but how many among the complainer can come out a better solution/decision? People who complain on their life is not on their hand is people who not dare and not capable to make their own decision. Smart people will learn how to make decision and change it later, normally people will keep it silent since they know they can't make the change and others will make lot of noise and self-appreciation to let themselves feel better. how about you?
三心二意无定性, 四处徘徊不专精, 仅管条条大路通长安, 却永远无法到达终点! -静思语
Wednesday, February 7, 2007
Enough! Get me home!
During school period, take plane to travel around the world always is my dream. That's why after graduate, I target to company that offer to travel a lot. I feel lucky that i had get what I want, at least at the moment. My first flight is only short distance, from KL to Singapore. I'm so excited that time because 1 of my dream had come true just few month after graduate. Old man do not have good memory, actually i had forget how i feel at that time, but excited should be one of my feeling. :)
After that I flight quite frequent on business trip, I once travel from KL to Jakarta on Tuesday, than flight to Surabaya on Wednesday, back to Jakarta on Thursday and flied back Kl on Friday. That trip is dam tired. And the worst is that trip didn't met the target of the trip, the error didn't get solve. :s I still remember that trip because that is my ever dangerous flight I had took. We didn't plan to go Surabaya initially, but we need to go there last minutes. I still remember a user from client and me searching in airport looking for 2 tickets. It is a good experience, at least that is my only similar experience until now. The story not yet finish, when we depart, the flight keep sharking and moving up and down. Light flashing, children crying and people praying. It is so unforgettable dangerous!!! In that 2 years, I had travel to Indonesia, Brunei and Singapore.
After that i try to look for better opportunity to gain difference experience. I heard some new on my current company because I got a ex-colleague is move to here before, but he is leave before I joined. Actually I join this company also is an incident. I start searching for a job on around Jun, but i can't meet a good opportunity. Then I had give up since going to year end and i should wait for bonus and increment to get better bargain power. At that time, one of my friend get a interview chance at my current company, but she can't make it due to her euro trip and she give my phone number to that agent. I just feel no harm to have a try even though i not ready to change job at that moment. But that interview change the rest of my life. The most attractive points is I get the chance to travel to UK, if I decide to join, they can provided me a lot more traveling chance and to western country. The selling point is too attractive for me to cancel my plan to wait for bonus. Chance come and go, depend you grab it or not. Compare with bonus, I feel that the experience is something priceless. (I surely calculate the financial benefit before saying this, but i just didn't expect that year my ex-company give such a big jump to their staff, some get 800 and 2.75 - 3 months bonus. I really feel abit regret at the moment. Miss calculation) :p
Back to story. In that year, I travel 7 time to UK and stay there around 180 days. In the midwhile, I also grab the chance to travel city nearby, Paris, Scotland, Wales and Munich. That really amazing experience I had. But at the same time, traveling with flight is something suffering for me. Imaging sit in plane for 14 hours. Don't know what to do, no people chat with, can't sleep nicely. People will never get satisfy with what they have is always true, at least it work on me.
Now, I spend my winter in Sweden. It is great country to travel PROVIDED you know Swedish and you have lot of money. Maybe people stay north euro used to be cold, even the heart! I been here for few weeks, I had try to mixed with people here. But something just not right. When lunch together or even in meeting, they just use Swedish to speak, HEY, anybody there, I'm sit on the same table and I'm together with you all, do you see me!!! When out for lunch, maybe a more friendly 1 will explain what they had on menu today (all menu only in Swedish), but sometime, I just guessing what that is, and tell the cashier i want menu 1, 2 or 3. I going to crazy if keep staying here. Everyday a lot of noise come through my ear which is meaningless to me. Today should be the worst case, they forget to bring me out for lunch. :( Nearer restoran from my working place is 5-10 minutes drive and now is winter season!!! Enough! Bring Me Home!!! Btw, I still like to travel de. Just sometime lonely like hell if alone for too long period. Hahahahaha.... 无奈的呼喊。。
After that I flight quite frequent on business trip, I once travel from KL to Jakarta on Tuesday, than flight to Surabaya on Wednesday, back to Jakarta on Thursday and flied back Kl on Friday. That trip is dam tired. And the worst is that trip didn't met the target of the trip, the error didn't get solve. :s I still remember that trip because that is my ever dangerous flight I had took. We didn't plan to go Surabaya initially, but we need to go there last minutes. I still remember a user from client and me searching in airport looking for 2 tickets. It is a good experience, at least that is my only similar experience until now. The story not yet finish, when we depart, the flight keep sharking and moving up and down. Light flashing, children crying and people praying. It is so unforgettable dangerous!!! In that 2 years, I had travel to Indonesia, Brunei and Singapore.
After that i try to look for better opportunity to gain difference experience. I heard some new on my current company because I got a ex-colleague is move to here before, but he is leave before I joined. Actually I join this company also is an incident. I start searching for a job on around Jun, but i can't meet a good opportunity. Then I had give up since going to year end and i should wait for bonus and increment to get better bargain power. At that time, one of my friend get a interview chance at my current company, but she can't make it due to her euro trip and she give my phone number to that agent. I just feel no harm to have a try even though i not ready to change job at that moment. But that interview change the rest of my life. The most attractive points is I get the chance to travel to UK, if I decide to join, they can provided me a lot more traveling chance and to western country. The selling point is too attractive for me to cancel my plan to wait for bonus. Chance come and go, depend you grab it or not. Compare with bonus, I feel that the experience is something priceless. (I surely calculate the financial benefit before saying this, but i just didn't expect that year my ex-company give such a big jump to their staff, some get 800 and 2.75 - 3 months bonus. I really feel abit regret at the moment. Miss calculation) :p
Back to story. In that year, I travel 7 time to UK and stay there around 180 days. In the midwhile, I also grab the chance to travel city nearby, Paris, Scotland, Wales and Munich. That really amazing experience I had. But at the same time, traveling with flight is something suffering for me. Imaging sit in plane for 14 hours. Don't know what to do, no people chat with, can't sleep nicely. People will never get satisfy with what they have is always true, at least it work on me.
Now, I spend my winter in Sweden. It is great country to travel PROVIDED you know Swedish and you have lot of money. Maybe people stay north euro used to be cold, even the heart! I been here for few weeks, I had try to mixed with people here. But something just not right. When lunch together or even in meeting, they just use Swedish to speak, HEY, anybody there, I'm sit on the same table and I'm together with you all, do you see me!!! When out for lunch, maybe a more friendly 1 will explain what they had on menu today (all menu only in Swedish), but sometime, I just guessing what that is, and tell the cashier i want menu 1, 2 or 3. I going to crazy if keep staying here. Everyday a lot of noise come through my ear which is meaningless to me. Today should be the worst case, they forget to bring me out for lunch. :( Nearer restoran from my working place is 5-10 minutes drive and now is winter season!!! Enough! Bring Me Home!!! Btw, I still like to travel de. Just sometime lonely like hell if alone for too long period. Hahahahaha.... 无奈的呼喊。。
Tuesday, February 6, 2007
Friendship..
Everyone of us should have a lot of friends, and also difference kind of friends. I quite easy to get friend with other, because i can easily have some topics with people around me and I always put a smile on face to get closer with people around me. No matter where i going to, smiling is best communication tool to bring other get closer to you. At least it happen to me nearly every country i had went before, UK, Germany or Sweden. I feel the important of smiling especially in Sweden, a country that English is not so popular. People working around me do not have high education, and only language they used to speak is Swedish. But a simple smile bring us together and we try to chat with each other with his limited English word and my extra limit Swedish (use guessing). How powerful of a smile. Anyway, people like this around us, do we consider it as friend? Maybe we had a common term for them, hi/bye group. We meet a lot people around us everyday, working colleagues, taxi driver or even someone from bus station. But mainly all those friendship is short term and not stable.
Actually my initial topic for today is 'I'm who I'm' to continue yesterday topic 'So what, I'm who I'm'. But today i chat with a friend with i feel I had lost contact even she still in my msn list. It trigger me to think further on my friendship life with people around me, which is short and still need more time to develop. I know i very poor to maintain a friendship even though I had a lot of friends around me from time to time, but i still don't have a friendship that really long lasting (more than 8 years). A friend which i get to know during SPM holiday job and still keep in touch should be my oldest friend i had at the moment. That's why I really admire those people got pure and true friendship growth up with them together, share the sweet moment and cry together with them. They have same history and friendship that hard to break. Now, I really feel that develop a sincere and true friendship really harder than develop a banking system. :s
I get a good formula from friend today on how to calculate a perfect life, which is perfect life = family + health + love + career + friend. We try to find out why we not satisfy with our current situation from this formula and I quite agree with this formula, friend no doubt is important part to make our life perfect and meaningful. At the moment, career still is my weakness link to cause my life broken. although i do not have long lasting friend with me at the moment, but i believe there is someone around me more than worth for me to maintain and keep as true friend. I feel lucky to meet all those friends and I'll appreciate it. This time, I'll not let a item to perfect my life let go as what i has miss out last time!!!
Actually my initial topic for today is 'I'm who I'm' to continue yesterday topic 'So what, I'm who I'm'. But today i chat with a friend with i feel I had lost contact even she still in my msn list. It trigger me to think further on my friendship life with people around me, which is short and still need more time to develop. I know i very poor to maintain a friendship even though I had a lot of friends around me from time to time, but i still don't have a friendship that really long lasting (more than 8 years). A friend which i get to know during SPM holiday job and still keep in touch should be my oldest friend i had at the moment. That's why I really admire those people got pure and true friendship growth up with them together, share the sweet moment and cry together with them. They have same history and friendship that hard to break. Now, I really feel that develop a sincere and true friendship really harder than develop a banking system. :s
I get a good formula from friend today on how to calculate a perfect life, which is perfect life = family + health + love + career + friend. We try to find out why we not satisfy with our current situation from this formula and I quite agree with this formula, friend no doubt is important part to make our life perfect and meaningful. At the moment, career still is my weakness link to cause my life broken. although i do not have long lasting friend with me at the moment, but i believe there is someone around me more than worth for me to maintain and keep as true friend. I feel lucky to meet all those friends and I'll appreciate it. This time, I'll not let a item to perfect my life let go as what i has miss out last time!!!
Monday, February 5, 2007
So what!
Few days never update my blog. I feel that if i not put something on today, this might become my history again. So far, this is 3rd blog i had open, previous 2 blog only last for few weeks, I really hope that this can together with me longer, even forever if i manage to overcome my laziness and fear.
Actually i got quite a lot of idea to put on my blog, but everything there is something stop me. Laziness, should be quite simply to understand. I'm a person which not patience and wish to make thing fast but it will not stand last. My friend around me should feel that, especially those work with me on something before. I can give lot of idea and effort at the beginning of anything, but when there is nothing to push me later, everything will slow down. It is very dangerous to work together with me and i know that. Because I'm lazy and easy go lucky people. I consider myself as never really have hard time before. so far I'm quite lucky that i didn't push hard to get something, even something i need to, but i'll tell myself, that is not that important, just let go instead of try harder. And that's why i still working hard and complain everything on my life. I know i choose to and i know i can make the change if i really want. But i keep let the thing go and let my life easy going.
Than how about fear. Language is something I hate, especially writing. I can speak well but when come to writing, i always lack of word to express the message i try to pass out. For mandarin, I need to spend hours to come out a paragraph, with my 1st weakness - lazy + no patience, this is quite impossible for me to write something long in mandarin. With English, word keep rapid and hard to get a work that form 3 student can't understand. I doubt my English still worst than a secondary pupils. This always stop me to post any blog online, I try not to show too much of my weakness in front of other. It make me terrible self-abasement. But so what! I always use this 2 word to let me feel release. No one is perfect in this world. I should brave to do what i want to do and not stay in the world i imaging. True friend will not laugh on your weakness and sincere friend will try to guide you better. Beside that, do more what you afraid on is best way to walk out from that frightened.
So what! the worst for a human can be is not dead, but stay with fear and worrying. And I always believe - Tomorrow will be better day. Nothing is impossible if you believe it can. :)
Actually i got quite a lot of idea to put on my blog, but everything there is something stop me. Laziness, should be quite simply to understand. I'm a person which not patience and wish to make thing fast but it will not stand last. My friend around me should feel that, especially those work with me on something before. I can give lot of idea and effort at the beginning of anything, but when there is nothing to push me later, everything will slow down. It is very dangerous to work together with me and i know that. Because I'm lazy and easy go lucky people. I consider myself as never really have hard time before. so far I'm quite lucky that i didn't push hard to get something, even something i need to, but i'll tell myself, that is not that important, just let go instead of try harder. And that's why i still working hard and complain everything on my life. I know i choose to and i know i can make the change if i really want. But i keep let the thing go and let my life easy going.
Than how about fear. Language is something I hate, especially writing. I can speak well but when come to writing, i always lack of word to express the message i try to pass out. For mandarin, I need to spend hours to come out a paragraph, with my 1st weakness - lazy + no patience, this is quite impossible for me to write something long in mandarin. With English, word keep rapid and hard to get a work that form 3 student can't understand. I doubt my English still worst than a secondary pupils. This always stop me to post any blog online, I try not to show too much of my weakness in front of other. It make me terrible self-abasement. But so what! I always use this 2 word to let me feel release. No one is perfect in this world. I should brave to do what i want to do and not stay in the world i imaging. True friend will not laugh on your weakness and sincere friend will try to guide you better. Beside that, do more what you afraid on is best way to walk out from that frightened.
So what! the worst for a human can be is not dead, but stay with fear and worrying. And I always believe - Tomorrow will be better day. Nothing is impossible if you believe it can. :)
Tuesday, January 30, 2007
辛苦一辈子?
I always aim to be financial independence as soon as I can, but what it so call independence in term of financial? I have unlimited buying power through out my life? I have few Million dollar in saving acc? Or i have a stable business running to generate money for me? No matter what defination that is, the problem should be what i did to make my dream come true?
I'll explain financial independence as I have stable income generated from investment (can be a business or some other investment tool) and the that amount enough for me to continue my life without consider too much on spending, but still need to have planing.
How can I reach there? I had countless of idea that might working, but i not even put one in action. Why? Because i afraid to change and not dare to take risk, as every defeated. But, if only depend on income from daily working, when can I have my dream life? I afraid my answer is it will never happen. Everyone working hard to earn more income and wish to have better life in future, this reason use for a fresh graduate who newly enter business world and also those senior staff going to retired, is't it funny? For me, I've plan to have early retirement for myself around 45 and I going to 30's, but what had i done to hit my target? 辛苦一阵子/辛苦一辈子I shall make the decision now and go for it or I will just regret later. I still have 16 years to work toward my plan.
I'll explain financial independence as I have stable income generated from investment (can be a business or some other investment tool) and the that amount enough for me to continue my life without consider too much on spending, but still need to have planing.
How can I reach there? I had countless of idea that might working, but i not even put one in action. Why? Because i afraid to change and not dare to take risk, as every defeated. But, if only depend on income from daily working, when can I have my dream life? I afraid my answer is it will never happen. Everyone working hard to earn more income and wish to have better life in future, this reason use for a fresh graduate who newly enter business world and also those senior staff going to retired, is't it funny? For me, I've plan to have early retirement for myself around 45 and I going to 30's, but what had i done to hit my target? 辛苦一阵子/辛苦一辈子I shall make the decision now and go for it or I will just regret later. I still have 16 years to work toward my plan.
Saturday, January 27, 2007
Winter In Norrkoping
Norrkoping, I initially pronouce it as nor-ko-ping, but it actually call nor-sho-ping, a swedish word. A city that very new for me, at least i not even know this city before i get assign to current task.
Winter, I had experience this cold and snowing season 2 years ago in UK. I feel that it is something difference, but it is not excited to me, at least i still can travel around with a normal jacket and a jean. Snowing is very nice and scene is beautiful. That trip is one of my great momery that i won't forget.
When i know that i'll come to Norrkoping, Sweden for this winter, i not really excited since i feel it should be nothing difference as what i experience in UK. But i'm wrong. If anyone have the same impression as me, that is very big mistake. heavy snowing, -10 degree of temperature, river cover by ais and pipe water become ais is something you can't experience in many seasoning country. I'm glad that i get the chance to add sparking and colorful memory into my thirst life again.
I'm lucky that when i pass by the river, the ais start to breaking, although i can't experience step on it, but i heard that sound of breaking ais, as what shown in movie.
Anyway, travel during winter season is something difficult, the wing is strong and that is so cold until you can feel the painful on every part that didn't get cover by jacket, especially when you need to take photo, your hand will be freezing. 
Friday, January 26, 2007
Onsite at Sweden
Everytime I think of UK, it give me impression that is a very expensive place to go, at least the currency is 7x RM. But i change my mind when i spend more than 1 year there. I feel that the thing there is cheap, if value to value, than M'sia goods consider super expensive. What can you did with RM1 nowaday? but you still can get 1 pack of apple of 8 with 1 pound. Why I compare value to value? because their fresh graduate get the same salary as us, who also graduate in M'sia.
Now i'm in Sweden and i know what is so call euro standard of living cost. Cheapest bean sprout i can found here is 17Kr per 500g. Those on sale clothes (not branded) is around 400-500Kr (1Kr = RM0.51) . Everyday i take taxi to customer site 10 minutes cost me 180Kr. This so call euro standard living cost!!!
At the moment, Sweden is in winter season, I enjoy to experience a actual pure white snowing season. Is it sure beauty and romance, but at the same time, it also cause me feel lonely and teribble cold! Human like to complain a lot and i should be a typical human, since i never get satify with what i get.
Last but not least, having travel to difference country with difference culture is good experience. Especially those expensive city that I can't afford to travel myself. I glad to have all those chances. I'm so lucky!!!
Now i'm in Sweden and i know what is so call euro standard of living cost. Cheapest bean sprout i can found here is 17Kr per 500g. Those on sale clothes (not branded) is around 400-500Kr (1Kr = RM0.51) . Everyday i take taxi to customer site 10 minutes cost me 180Kr. This so call euro standard living cost!!!
At the moment, Sweden is in winter season, I enjoy to experience a actual pure white snowing season. Is it sure beauty and romance, but at the same time, it also cause me feel lonely and teribble cold! Human like to complain a lot and i should be a typical human, since i never get satify with what i get.
Last but not least, having travel to difference country with difference culture is good experience. Especially those expensive city that I can't afford to travel myself. I glad to have all those chances. I'm so lucky!!!
Thursday, January 25, 2007
Vacancy!!!
Any job vacancy available? please paste it here. Many of my friend which is graduated, experience and knowledgable is looking for challanging job. Here is some information i get:
1. Business Object Developer x 3
2. Peoplesoft Developer x 34
3. Peoplesoft Tester x 7
4. Kronos Developer (Time Attendance) x 4
5. Informatica Developer x 1
6. Performance Tester x 2
7. SAP HR Developer x 2
8. SAP ABAP Developer x 5
9. Microsoft Dot Net Developer x 7
(with VB.Net, ASP.Net, C# experience)
10. Oracle PL/SQL & Unix Developer x 7
11. Brio/Cognos Report Writer x 5*
12. BizTalk Developer x 5
13. Cincom Developer x 5
14. I-Scala Developer x 2
15. Oracle Database Administrator x 4
16. Java/Oracle Developer x 1
17. SAP BW Developer x 1
18. Web Developer x 1
19. Senior Security/Risk Compliance Lead x 1
20. Senior Security/Risk Compliance Analyst x 2
21. Web UI Designer x 3
22. Coldfusion Developer x 1
23. Java Developer x 2
whoever interested in above position, please get contact from EK
Another company need following position:
1. Technical Consultants - Unix (vi, shell, perl, etc)
2. Software Engineers - Perl, Unix shells, SQL, C/C++, Java and PL/SQL; relational database design and use, including use of SQL.
3. Systems Engineers - 2G and 3G wireless technologies and infrastructure, specifically GSM/GRPS/EDGE, UMTS, CDMA IS95, and CDMA2000
1. Business Object Developer x 3
2. Peoplesoft Developer x 34
3. Peoplesoft Tester x 7
4. Kronos Developer (Time Attendance) x 4
5. Informatica Developer x 1
6. Performance Tester x 2
7. SAP HR Developer x 2
8. SAP ABAP Developer x 5
9. Microsoft Dot Net Developer x 7
(with VB.Net, ASP.Net, C# experience)
10. Oracle PL/SQL & Unix Developer x 7
11. Brio/Cognos Report Writer x 5*
12. BizTalk Developer x 5
13. Cincom Developer x 5
14. I-Scala Developer x 2
15. Oracle Database Administrator x 4
16. Java/Oracle Developer x 1
17. SAP BW Developer x 1
18. Web Developer x 1
19. Senior Security/Risk Compliance Lead x 1
20. Senior Security/Risk Compliance Analyst x 2
21. Web UI Designer x 3
22. Coldfusion Developer x 1
23. Java Developer x 2
whoever interested in above position, please get contact from EK
Another company need following position:
1. Technical Consultants - Unix (vi, shell, perl, etc)
2. Software Engineers - Perl, Unix shells, SQL, C/C++, Java and PL/SQL; relational database design and use, including use of SQL.
3. Systems Engineers - 2G and 3G wireless technologies and infrastructure, specifically GSM/GRPS/EDGE, UMTS, CDMA IS95, and CDMA2000
Share Market
When share marking will reach 1300 or even higher should be hot topic in Malaysia market. But what happen if CI reach 1300? Maybe it mean rich people to get richer, but poor people didn't get any. Becuase if you take a closer look on share market everyday, you can find out soemtime even only 300++ share is raising and 600++ share is droping, but CI still turn green, what this mean? blue chips (expensive and stable share) push up the CI, but those Mesdaq, 2nd Board and others counter which normal worker afford to invest didn't get any return. That is reality of Malaysia market.
Gossip
Hi friend,
Do you heard any gossip, put it here to share it out! But please do not post something that will hurt others feeling. Those can sent to my messager personally.. hahahaha...
Welcome to gossip world. A world no 1 can live without!
ek
Do you heard any gossip, put it here to share it out! But please do not post something that will hurt others feeling. Those can sent to my messager personally.. hahahaha...
Welcome to gossip world. A world no 1 can live without!
ek
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